Life goes on - a cliche that seems to be used at every possible occurrence, even for the most mundane of things. People like to use it after an event of enormous proportions with possible life-changing side-effects. Whatever that affects you, may have little to no effect to others, and thus life that encompasses all that is in the world goes on like before, like the never ending currents of time.
But for an event that makes everything pause, another cliche is used - as though life, or time, stopped still. Events on this scale may have comparably huge proportions, but affects everyone and makes them stop and consider what has happened, and what life is and would be here on in. Questions will be asked: How did it happened? How could it have happened? What will we do, what will life be, after this happened? Can the world ever be the same?
Which would you rather prefer, life going on or stopping still, when you do something extraordinary? Would you prefer that everyone move on regardless of what you're doing or what happens to you, or would you prefer the whole world, or at least the world you know, to stop and turn their attention to you?
More importantly, what would your choice say about you?
Certainly, the former choice can only point to your selflessness, and perhaps to your humility, that you acknowledge the fact that in the grand scheme of things, you represent but a tiny detail. That would be the general perception, but are you thinking that there are perhaps other possibility? Could it be that you are hopelessly altruistic, that in action and even in death you still think of others before of yourself? Or could it be that you are shameful of your existence, and you would prefer that everyone just turn their eyes away for you? For that matter, could you be suicidal? (Mind you, this is just a thought.)
What about the latter choice? Would you agree that in choosing for life stopping still for you, you are to some degree attention-seeking? Could you be suffering from attention-deficit disorder, the dreaded ADD? Certainly, if you want everyone's attention, it could only mean that you think the world revolves around you. The general perception must be that you are selfish. But are we, if we take this option? Perhaps we are just admitting to, and even accepting, our natural human instinct. The proof is in an innocent child, who desires, and deserves, our every drop of attention. A child seeks the approval in the things he do, and must demand that the world stood still for him.
Of course, you can't expect to choose one and stick to it your whole life. No one is that rigid. The question is, which would you more likely choose more? Then again, you can't expect this to be the absolute truth. Perhaps you have something to add?
Thursday, June 17, 2010
Monday, June 14, 2010
Jewel of a Friend
Reflecting on our first times together,
As fleeting images roll past the windows,
Can I have been so blessed with
Heaven's companion, so gentle and beautiful?
Endless days separate our meetings,
Longing marks these "miss you" nights.
Time is not our friend,
As times spent together
Never lasts more than a few hours.
Hence, I treasure what times we had
Until we meet again;
Await I will for that smile
You reserve for friends only.
You are the jewel of a friend; I can search for an
Eternity, but never will I find one that can compare to you.
As fleeting images roll past the windows,
Can I have been so blessed with
Heaven's companion, so gentle and beautiful?
Endless days separate our meetings,
Longing marks these "miss you" nights.
Time is not our friend,
As times spent together
Never lasts more than a few hours.
Hence, I treasure what times we had
Until we meet again;
Await I will for that smile
You reserve for friends only.
You are the jewel of a friend; I can search for an
Eternity, but never will I find one that can compare to you.
Wednesday, June 9, 2010
Update
I think I should have time for a short update. At the time of writing I have 13 minutes before the restaurant opens for the night shift...
Been actively serving as associate cook and did a stint of waiting this afternoon. My cooking still needs work in the areas I've been allowed to cook for the customers i.e. Chicken Milano, Spaghetti Aglio Olio, but they are minor flaws and can be easily remedied with a few more attempts.
I'm not swamped by work, seriously. I've got plenty of time to rest in between tasks and shifts, like now. Got time to read up on Egypt's New Kingdom, to get some info for my short stories series, and tinkered a little with Scroll II. Although, Anubis is taking its time to form, I'm a little stuck at describing Osiris' cenotaph.
Back to the restaurant, so far I've been exposed to a variety of Nonya cooking, as well as the aforementioned recipes, Spaghetti Carbonara, Oxtail Soup, Lamb Chops and the like. Outside the menu, my mentor has generously given me a look at Swedish meatballs and lemon cheesecake - the latter which will be tested at a birthday party the restaurant is hosting for the boss' son, at which I am expected to attend and cook for.
These few days I've been in a text chat with a girl I met at camp. It's been fun, I got to know her better, and at a glance you might even think I'm rather attracted to her. She does appeal to me, we do have quite a few things in common, but it's only been two weeks, and so it's very hard to say. We only met once after the camp, and that was with a big group of other people who went to the camp. I'd like to have an outing together, but she said she's uncomfortable with the offer. I did say I'd invite a few other people, a bigger group so to speak, and we can even shop around for stuff for a poolside-cum-housewarming party that seems to be on everyone's mind.
All-in-all, I'd like to get to know her better, face-to-face. Need to work harder...
Been actively serving as associate cook and did a stint of waiting this afternoon. My cooking still needs work in the areas I've been allowed to cook for the customers i.e. Chicken Milano, Spaghetti Aglio Olio, but they are minor flaws and can be easily remedied with a few more attempts.
I'm not swamped by work, seriously. I've got plenty of time to rest in between tasks and shifts, like now. Got time to read up on Egypt's New Kingdom, to get some info for my short stories series, and tinkered a little with Scroll II. Although, Anubis is taking its time to form, I'm a little stuck at describing Osiris' cenotaph.
Back to the restaurant, so far I've been exposed to a variety of Nonya cooking, as well as the aforementioned recipes, Spaghetti Carbonara, Oxtail Soup, Lamb Chops and the like. Outside the menu, my mentor has generously given me a look at Swedish meatballs and lemon cheesecake - the latter which will be tested at a birthday party the restaurant is hosting for the boss' son, at which I am expected to attend and cook for.
These few days I've been in a text chat with a girl I met at camp. It's been fun, I got to know her better, and at a glance you might even think I'm rather attracted to her. She does appeal to me, we do have quite a few things in common, but it's only been two weeks, and so it's very hard to say. We only met once after the camp, and that was with a big group of other people who went to the camp. I'd like to have an outing together, but she said she's uncomfortable with the offer. I did say I'd invite a few other people, a bigger group so to speak, and we can even shop around for stuff for a poolside-cum-housewarming party that seems to be on everyone's mind.
All-in-all, I'd like to get to know her better, face-to-face. Need to work harder...
Monday, June 7, 2010
Employed
Now I can proudly say that I am no longer an unemployed person! My days for the coming month right up till Orientation Day in my new college will be filled up with learning from the chef at a restaurant near my parents' company.
I have just finished my first shift, 9.30am to 3.00pm and I can say that it was good. I discovered some useful tips for a few pasta sauces as well as seen some local cuisine in the making. Fortunately my job does not include any cleaning of the restaurant, but just some cooking preparations i.e. chopping up onions and carrots.
Sure I have to give up some of my usual past-time activities; I can't watch movies during the day when so few people are around the house; I can't enjoy a book without caring about the time; I can't supervise anything going on in the house, especially now when we still have stuff being moved in; and I certainly can't cook for myself anymore. But it is all for a good cause for which I most certainly do not mind sacrificing a few menial hobbies.
On a minor note before signing off, I have internet access again! Now I can come in between shifts to the office to go online, so I won't be too bored at home or at work.
Alright, I'm running out of thoughts to write, so sayonara.
I have just finished my first shift, 9.30am to 3.00pm and I can say that it was good. I discovered some useful tips for a few pasta sauces as well as seen some local cuisine in the making. Fortunately my job does not include any cleaning of the restaurant, but just some cooking preparations i.e. chopping up onions and carrots.
Sure I have to give up some of my usual past-time activities; I can't watch movies during the day when so few people are around the house; I can't enjoy a book without caring about the time; I can't supervise anything going on in the house, especially now when we still have stuff being moved in; and I certainly can't cook for myself anymore. But it is all for a good cause for which I most certainly do not mind sacrificing a few menial hobbies.
On a minor note before signing off, I have internet access again! Now I can come in between shifts to the office to go online, so I won't be too bored at home or at work.
Alright, I'm running out of thoughts to write, so sayonara.
Friday, June 4, 2010
Stammer
"Not good. That is not good." ~ Yuri, 2012
The good news is, I've completely moved into my new home, which is by far the best place I've stayed in.
The bad news is, the internet connection won't be resurrected until next month. July.
There is a silver lining though. Mom decided to leave the network hardware in the old house, so if I should ever need free WiFi I just have to go there myself. I'll lose my night surfing hours, and I can't go there everyday, much as I like to, but still, it's better than nothing.
Have few to report here actually. I'm reading some interesting books, and most recently something about Ancient Egypt's New Kingdom era. Of course, this will be most helpful in my Chronicles of the Soulless, since it is primarily on Egyptian pantheon of gods and goddesses, and to a certain extent, Egyptian life.
And I'm not going to be lounging around any longer! Got my eyes set on a clubhouse restaurant in a Eco park near my parent's company. I'm going to be there for lunch and at the same time ask the boss if he'll accept me as an intern. We've previously talked about it and he seems okay with it, so I'll just have to confirm with him.
I'm starting to do regular devotion again. The reading guide goes through Psalms twice a year, so I'll have to wait till July to restart. I want to finish Proverbs and Psalms this year, and the rest of the Bible next year, God willing.
And speaking of God, thank the Lord above that my parents consented to my baptism! They seemed to accept the fact that it's my life to run now, and I have been trying to tell them of some stuff about Christianity. I haven't had the opportunity to bring them to church, on the account that my sister has swimming classes right before the Sunday service. But if all goes well, I'll be getting baptized during October, publicly too. Not sure how to think about that...
One last thing. The Edventure Camp Echo is today... And I feel like screaming. I've been "nominated" to speak about the camp, and I have absolutely no idea how to do it! I basically know what to speak about, but I need to get my speech prepared, else I'll be beating around a really big bush.
So that's it for now. I really don't have the time for a more insightful, thought provoking post.
Maybe next time.
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