Procrastination

I originally learned of this word from an acquaintance from Penang, who is now really no more than a memory. Who knew that this would gradually become an annoying trait of mine.

By definition, it means to put off or delay the completion of a certain task. The layman might associate this word with laziness, but in actual fact there is little in common between the two words. A procrastinator normally would finish his work in the end, albeit often unsatisfactorily, but a lazy person just couldn't bother finishing his.

I wasn't always like this. In fact, I considered procrastination one of my cardinal sins and would never do that to important tasks. In other words, the only reason why some of my work was done at the last minute was because I had simply forgotten about it. Shamefully, that was the truth.

Presently, it is a different case. Some people might give any excuse conceivable under the sky to put off doing something. Not everyone may relate to that, but sometimes it is because they simply don't want to let it be done. Perhaps doing that certain task has consumed most of their time and energy, and they worry that they would not have meaning in their lives any more after it is completed.

And perhaps, that is the case for me. I'd usually deny this, but a part of me has gotten used to relaxing without a care in the world, which used to be a rarity for me. In order to shy away from the stress of life and living I would retreat to fiction - usually movies and books - for simple, temporary distraction. In the beginning, it was simply a distraction; unfortunately it quickly grew into an addiction.

However, there are two sides to every coin. I have acknowledged this flaw, and recently have begun to grow restless from all the cooping up I have resorted to. While this is a good thing, I need to be constantly vigilant against relapses and weakness, and in order to cure myself of this addiction I might have to turn to the extreme...

Enough said about such a depressing matter. I actually wanted to write about my writing project. I haven't written anything about the Lady ever since Johor, and I was supposed to do it alongside the Chronicles. And I have writer's block in the middle of Scroll II, so I'm really trying to kick back and think of a way out and continue the story. Alas, that might actually involve editing what I've written so far...

*Sigh. Writer out.